Tuesday, February 06, 2007
A long overdue update....
Sorry that I haven't been around for a few months. I just haven't been in the mood to blog. Thanks to those of you who continue to check in on me...

Husband and I did cycle again in November. We tried a different protocol but ended up with identical results (expect that we had 15 eggs retrieved this time). We now have conclusive evidence that I cannot create mature eggs - of course we don't know why. Anyway... the news was hard to take, but I think the long break in between cycles gave us time to prepare for the worst.

We are at yet another decision point in this whole trying to create a family fiasco... 1) we can attempt donor eggs; 2) we can start the adoption process; or 3) we can live child free. I already know what our decision is, but I haven't decided whether or not I am going to share it with the Internet. I will post again soon regardless of what I decide.

- P.


12 Comments:

Blogger Lut C. said...

My goodness, that must have been quite a blow. No matter how well prepared you are for the worst, when it strikes it hurts.

I hope you find a path that you're comfortable with, or as comfortable as possible.

Anonymous Anonymous said...

What a difficult outcome. As long as you and your husband are comfortable with your decision, the rest of us can certainly respect your decision on whether to share. I wish you the best.

Blogger Thalia said...

that must have been really tough, P. I'm glad you had the break as it seems you found that helpful in dealing with the bad news. We still think of you often. Hoping the next path is a more productive and happy one for you.

Anonymous Anonymous said...

Thanks for the update. I can see why you weren't on fire to blog about it when it was happening. I'm glad that you have decided. That must bring you some peace.

Anonymous Anonymous said...

I'm so sorry P! That must have been awful, but have you been to a different clinic? I always think a different clinic might give different results. Anyway - I always have more questions than answers and I don't mean to upset you if you've already made your decision not to cycle again.

All the best to you!

Blogger Larisa said...

What a rough year for you. I'm so glad you updated, but I'm so sorry that it's with this news.

I hope that you and your husband are both at peace with whatever decision you make.

Thinking of you often.

Anonymous Anonymous said...

Thank you for updating...I've been checking in from time to time. I too hope you are at peace with your decision. Please know that you are wished the very best from me and others.

Anonymous Anonymous said...

I am so sorry. I wish you & your dh all the best, now and always.

Blogger laura said...

So glad to hear from you ... I'd been wondering. I'm so sorry for your pain during this last cycle, but glad that you've made a decision.

Blogger One View said...

I just came across your blog for the first time. I'm so sorry to hear about what you are going through but I have similar issue as well. Most of my eggs retreived were immature and the ones that weren't had egg quality issues. Dh and I are at the same point as well deciding what to do next. Just wanted to wish you the best.

Blogger Spirit of Adoption said...

oh wow...I just read a few of your posts...your blogname alone is heartwrenching. I know your heart must be aching. We struggled with infertility for a 2 1/2 yrs (the Lord then gave us a surprise baby after we adopted), but the pain of infertility is SO hard!!! And few understand!! I'm just curious if you plan on making ya'lls decision internet public! We adopted, and it's been an AMAZING, WONDERFUL, wouldn't never change our circumstances journey. Our very close friends are going through an embryo adoption right now!!! There's so many options out there, and SO many babies in need of longing parents...hope you don't "give up"!!!

Blogger Kami said...

I found this blog from another blog. It has been awhile since this post and I suspect you have made your choices and moving on. I just wanted to wish you well on which ever path you decide.

After 5 years of infertility, my husband and I have decided to pursue donor eggs. Feel free to lurk on my blog if it would help.

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