Friday Thoughts...

I think that I have mentioned before that I work a 5/4 split in an "80" hour two week period. That is, I work 9 hour days, five days one week and four days the next. In actuality I work closer to 10 hours a day, plus my hour commute (each way). Usually I am really good about taking my day off. I stop to check my emails a couple of times (okay four or five) but I stay home, or I schedule appointments, or I go to the pool... today? Not. So. Much. I worked eight stinky, icky hours today.

Don't get me wrong, I love my work... but I feel like I am sliding down a slippery slope. Husband and I have both really thrown ourselves into our work since The Failure and sometimes I think we are obsessed. Soon we will be going on vacation and although I originally planned to leave my laptop at work and our laptop at home I don't think it is going to happen. Things are piling up and I jut don't know if I can let go for a week. AH!

Speaking of The Failure, Husband and I have been discussing the road in front of us and which path we want to take. We have had some very open discussions about adoption (international AND domestic) and about trying IVF again. I would like to take one more stab at creating a biological child of our own and it looks like we may try to get something scheduled at the end of the year. We are going to wait until the end of the year for a couple of selfish reasons. First, we have to jump back on this train (we had a relapse after The Failure) and second, I plan to get unbelievably intoxicated as I ring in my thirties.

So... here is my question. Do I 1) schedule with the clinic that I love with the Dr's that I love or 2) schedule with this clinic since this is definitely my LAST try? I am a very loyal person so chances are that I will stick with clinic #1 but input from my readers would be appreciated.

Lazy, rainy, summer day...

It has been raining on and off since 6:00 last night. The sky is overcast and I have absolutly NO energy. Apparently, neither do my kids:

Husband is out on the golf course and I expect that he will come home soaked to the bone and slighlty crabby from having had to get up so early on a Saturday. Husband will tell anyone that asks that he only gets up early on the weekends for three things: 1) Golf, 2) Baseball and 3) ... well I will leave that one to your imagination.

I am still sitting in my PJ's at 3:00 in the afternoon and I am seriously contemplating busting open a bottle of wine. My only resistance stems from the fact that today is grocery shopping day and I have to go out in public. Of course shopping half cocked after a bottle of nice red wine might be fun!

Thank you all for send me adoption blog links - I will have to get to reading soon.

Yesterday I went to the doctor for an earache and vertigo. Turns out they think I have sediment in my inner ear - most likely the result of a viral infection that I had in the past month. Funny, I didn't even realize I had a viral infection - in fact I only went to the doctor at the insitance of my coworkers after a scary incident involving me driving my car and the whole world going black. Not to worry I didn't hurt anyone or myself. I forgot how impersonal the PCP's office can be. I hadn't been there in over two years and they have no idea about the whole, can't have a kid thing. I sat there for 45 minutes waiting to be taken back to a room, I didn't know the nurses or the adminstrators, or the NP that came back to see me. They didn't ask about Husband or work or my overall mental state. It was just weird. I guess I was spoiled by Dr. Funny and his staff. Back to reality.

Looks like I have to update my links again... congratulations to Manuela and Statia!

New Template & Stuff...

I bet you are all happy to never, ever have to see that ugly blank page again! Thanks to Miss Zoot for the lovely design. What a talented lady!

I am soliciting suggestions for good adoption blogs. Click the link to the right if you have any to email me.

I reorganized all of my links today. I deleted those that had left the blogging world and placed each of my friends in their proper category. It it is bittersweet to have more friends in the "Pregnant after infertility" and "Infertile moms" categories than in the "Infertiles trying to get pregnant" category. I am so happy for each of my friends that have made it or are on their way, but it still stings a bit.

Hope you all have a great 4th! We have big plans to do a whole lot of NOTHING.